This is my entry for the February IWSG post, created by Alex J. Cavanaugh.
Imagine if life was just one big radar...and we are all just blips on the screen.
We are writers, and we have insecurities, but for some of us our insecurities have nothing to do with our craft. I want to show you an example of how our writing can actually help us overcome those insecurities, and in my case, be a sort of a deliverance.
I spend a lot of time here on my blog talking about the difference between the real-world “Don”, and “DL” the writer. That’s because there really is a night and day difference between us. (Let me apologize right now for talking about myself in the 3rd person. It probably makes me sound conceded, but it really does help in writing this.)
Don is both introverted and shy (no – they are not the same thing). He has one close friend, numerous acquaintances, and a family who often wonders what dark hole he’s disappeared into. Though he prefers solitude most of the time, he’s acutely aware of what he misses out on by not being more outgoing and expressive. He is in a constant struggle with himself, wishing he could be that social butterfly whose name is on everybody lips, but unwilling and/or unable to do anything about it.
DL, on the other hand, occupies the digital world with a confidence and swagger that Don could never exhibit. The words and emotions so often suppressed in the real world flow out of him like gushing water through a cracked dam. With his blog he’s been able to make a difference by bringing together other bloggers through his varied, and sometimes unique, efforts. His name (or rather, initials) are recognized around the blogosphere and he genuinely enjoys interacting with everybody he comes across. He is also self-assured enough to believe that it’s only a matter of time before his writing is discovered and one day he’ll be able to expand his influence even farther.
That’s enough of that 3rd person nonsense.
That radar screen I spoke of before? I’d like for you to think of a blip on that screen as a representation of a person's life, and more specifically the impact on the people around us. The blip slowly fades as the beam travels around the circumference of the circle, glowing brightly again as the beam finds it once more. I resolved myself a long time ago to the fact that my real world blip is barely noticeable. Almost undetectable. And even if it is spotted, it fades so quickly it could be easily confused as a glitch. Something that helped me make peace with that is my on-line persona has a blip of its own, and not only does it shine brightly, it remains on the screen for a good long time.
My writing spackles many of the holes my insecurities leave exposed, and that bleeds over into my other life. Out here…I matter… I impact people. Out here...my words are tracks in the snow my heart leaves behind. Out here...is my blip.
And I’m okay with that.
What about you? How does your writing influence your blip? Does it?